I've spent a lot of time thinking about this and this is my final solution: I really do love Janet more than anyone or anything in this world. Yes, even more than God. If that makes me a bad or fake Christian in your eyes I do not care. Fact is I believe in God. I believe Jesus is our savior and He died on the cross for our sins. Zac is my main spiritual advisor and he has told me everything is between God and me. I don't care what others think of me. I'll answer to God when I die. If you're not going to like me because I'm a hypocrite look in the mirror. At least I will admit I'm not a perfect Christian/Catholic. I admit I have faults. I struggle with my faith everyday. Also, maybe you shouldn't like any Christian unless they are as perfect as God. Do you know any? Yeah, me either.
I could survive without God. I could survive without Jesus. I could survive without Zac, my family, and my friends.
However, I absolutely CANNOT survive without my daughter. Besides, without her, I would have never fully accepted the fact that there is a God. My marriage to Zac really helped pave the way, but Janet sealed the deal. I look at her everyday and am convinced there is a higher being. I don't know how else I managed to get so lucky to have her as my daughter.
If I lost Janet you might as well lock me up in an asylum. My heart aches from all the love I feel for her. There is so much love there my heart can't contain it. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me. She's my greatest accomplishment. She is my life. A life without Janet is not worth living.
So there you have it. You don't like it, oh well. It's between God and me. You want to call me a hypocrite or a bad Christian because of this then seriously look in the mirror because I highly doubt you are also a perfect Christian.